The tide is high but I'm holding on...

B and I sang that song karaoke once....
I'm trying to decide if I have enough money to move out of my step-dad's house. I am tired of feeling so unsettled, so temporary, waiting... It seems like that stupid house just might not ever sell and I can't keep waiting to get on with my life. Now that it's finally warming up and the end of winter is in sight, moving seems like an option again. Just not so much a financial option.
I have two lawyers now, in two different states. Who ever expects to get to this place? I got some good news though, so I guess it is worth it. Also I feel so much safer with someone on my side, even if I'm paying them to be there. There really should be only one side here, the side of the girls, so why is there still all this stupid fighting? I've been feeling really stressed lately and just yesterday I finally realized why: all the drama was supposed to be over when the divorce was final, in December. I was so hung up on that idea and it didn't happen and I got really frustrated. But now I have come to my senses and I am back to my usual zen state. I can only control myself and my actions and I want to do what's best for my daughters. ohmmmm...
I'm having problems in my new job too, so I'm looking around again.
I don't really like the new daycare the girls are in but it's so hard to find good daycare. It seems like all they do when they aren't with me is watch tv, at their dad's house and at daycare and it's driving me crazy. I'd like to get them back into a center, like they were in in WI but they're aren't any near enough to consider.... I NEED a new job!
Only 13 days until we leave for florida....