Take my hand and we'll make it I swear...

Last night was the Bon Jovi concert and it was great! I am getting over strep throat so I couldn't enjoy it as much as I would have if I'd been perfectly healthy, but I still had a great time. I don't get to go to concerts very often so I always find them so surreal. I kept wanting to turn to Seth and say "Look! It's fucking Bon Jovi right there!!" But I know he would just think I was weird and "small town" so I kept that to myself. The dome was full, the show sold out a long time ago, and to hear that many people singing at the same time is so cool. There was a women sitting next to us who was really friendly, she even offered to buy us beer when she was going off to the bathroom. (We were way up, about 10 rows down from the top, right in the middle of a row.)When I bought the tickets months ago I wasn't sure who I would be bringing with me to the concert. I told Seth he could have the other ticket if we were still together at concert time but I didn't really think we would be. Here we are almost 6 months later with the concert behind us! In fact in just nine days it will be exactly six months ago that we met in person at The Winery. So much has happened in those 6 months!
In just a few days we're going back to the dome with the girls to see "Annie". I'm a little nervous about taking Susannah, she loves the movie but I don't know how she'll do at a musical. Hopefully I don't have to spend the whole time with her out in the hallway...
Last weekend we all went down to the cities for a little vacation. Seth had a monitor he wanted to return to Costco and I wanted to do some shopping. The girls wanted to go back to the rides at the Mall of America. Unfortunately it turned out to be a horrible weekend and by the time we got home I was pretty sure our relationship was over, or would be soon. It's so hard traveling with Seth and the girls because I have to do everything for them so it's not really relaxing at all for me and Seth is still adjusting to being around little kids, especially all day and night. It didn't help that my strep throat came on the end of the second day, and Susannah was sick and coughing most of the time too. We've since talked over some stuff and will talk over some more stuff in the near future and I think things will be good again.
I'm starting to see my pattern in relationships - before when times like this would come up I would just wait a few days and let the conflict pass instead of confronting it and seeing if the relationship would end. It's hard to talk about this stuff, especially if you don't hear what you want to hear. But this time I'm determined not to settle for a relationship that doesn't meet my needs no matter how much I think I love the guy so I'm making the two of us discuss these things until we can see each other's side and come to an agreement. It feels good to be secure enough to be able to let this go if it's not going to be good for me, well, us I mean, I have to think about what's best for the girls too this time around. It so important that they get what they need too.